5/14/04

I am sitting in my big chair now. It's 7:16 am and I have overslept. I was suppose to go to the hospital to see my mom, but honestly, I was afraid it was going to turn into a fight. Neither one of us is up for that right now. Tomorrow perhaps. So I am sitting in my big chair staring at my fish tank with my dog at my feet. I have 2 mollies, 4 tetra, 2 grouamis and an angle fish. I have had to separate the the angle and one of the gouarmis. I don't think they'll make it. We'll wait and see. I think I should get some more fish this weekend. My tank is a little sparse.

5/11/04

I'm at the hospital now and I should be working on this report for work, but I'm not. Mom is sleeping in the bed next to me. In a way it's comforting and in a way it's disturbing. She's not concerned with making sure I know she's OK or going to be OK. She's just laying there breathing deeply hooked up to her machine that is hydrating her. It's the same machine that gives here the chemo, just a different bag. I always thought Chemo was some type of room they put you in and shot radiation beams at you but it's not. But for this round it's just a bag they give her, it's orange.

I don't want to even think about it, but it seems to be a changing of the guard. The time when the kid(s) start taking care of the parents. I don't like this.

there's a nurse here on the floor who speaks with an English accent. Mom asked her where she was from and she said Dallas. 'So where did you get the accent?' -oh that? Well I went to school in England for nursing and was there 5-years. Now if I went to west Texas to go to nursing school, I can pretty much guarantee that I would not come back from that place speaking with their accent 5-years later. That has got to be something you work on on a daily basis. She just walked by the room talking about some medicine for another patient.

5/10/04

I've just stumbled across this blog thing and I really dig it. Actually, it seems like I've just stumbled across the internet and I really dig that too. I just got a laptop about a month ago and there is so much out there. I really had no idea. And I had no idea how many other people are out there. It really is amazing to me. Back to the blogs - I have been ready this one, Life at TJ's and it is really very well written and entertaining. I think I could follow the links from site to site all day.

It was mother's day yesterday and my sister came into town to see my mom. She, my sister, lives in Houston and me and my parents are in Dallas. My mom was diagnosed with Leukemia about two weeks ago. It's amazing how everything in your life can change from one phone call on a random Friday night. In a lot of ways this has been a huge blessing to my mom and to me. I can say that because it seems like my mom is going to make it. But it's still cancer and she still has to have Chemo and blood transfusions and be in the hospital for 4 weeks. It's scary shit. I'm sure I'll post more on that later.

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My name is Jenny and I am a single introverted engineer in her mid 30's living in north Dallas. And I don't know that I could think of anything that would be more suburban (please read boring) if I tried. And although I am quite aware that on the surface there could be nothing terribly interesting about my life, it should be noted that I have had an incredibly busy and , all things considered, non-boring life over the past 2-3 years.

This will more then likely be my online journal about what I hope will be a life worth reading about.

it is Sunday about 9:00 PM and i just got home from work. I have working on a project for about 3 years and it is finally finished. Or will be tomorrow morning when i turn it into the client. It has been a very long two weeks wrapping up the project and going to the hospial. We found out 2 weeks ago that my mother has Leukemia and i have been going to the hospital every morning to be there for her. Right now the prognosis looks good, but it has been a fairly draining few weeks.